I think there is nothing extraordinary about me.
I’m just another person striving to be the best me and the best mom I could be. I have tons of problems and issues. I’ve had many failures, made lots of mistakes, and too many wrong decisions. As vocal and opinionated as I am, I lived in a dark lonely place for a long time.

“You’re such a good mom”
“You’re so smart”
“You are successful”
“You’re such a hard worker”
Etc

If they only knew what was running through my mind…

I struggle with cliches and words of encouragement when times are tough!!! Ironic I know!

Can’t someone just sit there and just breath next to me?!?!?

I want to be angry.
I want to hate my situation.
I want to feel disappointed.
I want to feel sad
I want answers
I want explanations
I feel
Lost
Confused
Alone
Scared
Terrified
Anxious
Guilty
Embarrassed
Bitter
I FEEL STUCK

I LOVE HIM!
But I don’t like him.

Enter the world of LOUD silence.

A place where no one knows you’ve lost hope on family, friends, peers, society, yourself, even in God!!!

Welcome to the world where everyone knows more than you yet no one understands! No one knows you enough to sit next to you and just breath. IN OUT IN OUT IN OUT

WELCOME TO THE BEGINNING OF SILENT HOPE

#thebeginning

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